Look inside me, I’m the same, my big brown eyes can see your fears
If you’re standing close beside me I could bring you some relief
If you take me as you find me you will find I’ll try to please
It always helps to know there’s someone sharing your beliefs
If you’re feeling tired and lonely and you’re searching for a hand
I can’t make you any promise but I’ll try to understand
If you want someone to talk to I’ll listen all the night
Put myself in your position, try to put things right
Steer a steady line
I could want you
Pin your colours to my ensign and I’ll show you my respect
My faith will always hold me to it
Let you know there’s always something left
It’s better than being alone
Given time we’ll make our chances
Take advantage, get along
Let’s turn to fact our wildest dreams
My life’s too short for disappointments
I could want you
Because it’s better than being alone
Sarah’s got no money but she’s happier than me
As she spends her days just lazing with some flotsam on the beach
She’s young and idealistic and I hope she’ll never change
As she scours the land with nothing planned beyond the next few days
She says she’ll soon be coming back
All her world fits in one bag
Donates the blanket off her back to me
And says "You’ll need this when I’m gone"
She’s genuine and true, she’ll do anything for you
Split her last rupees in two, and there’s no point asking
Where she’s going to, for she’s off to pastures new
Where she’ll end up she’s not sure so there’s no point asking
She’s colourful and cool, no-one tells her what to do
She’s my friend and I’m hers too
Now wherever she may be
Sarah’s blanket’s safe with me.
I won’t entertain your thoughts
More treat them with disdain
My horizons are too broad
I seek further escapades, keep wanting more
Life’s too short, yet you wonder why
When I get bored again I reinvent myself
It’s simple and I know I’ll fool you
If I pause to linger I’ll resent myself I’m sure
I’ll make myself a lifestyle that I’ve never had before
I’m bored again
Time was I’d do anything you’d want me to, I wouldn’t balk
We’d make foolish plans, I’d read your mind with just a glance
No words were sought
I guess I thought if I was strong enough you’d treat me much the same
Instead you saw me as inhibited, giving me no chance to explain
You took liberties, I gave you first priority, you wanted more
Although I fought, my days were numbered (nil to nought)
I felt distraught
I really think you saw your income less disposable than me
A broken toy that you could throw away, give away, cast aside easily
I shed tears for you
Cried tears over you
I still end up feeling immature
Direct me to some other time
A situation not so tense and where you’re standing by my side
I wished you were mine
But circumstances took a hand and made a mockery of my trying
Got dirt on my shoes as the sunset turned grey
Bewildered I lost my way and so
I started to run, got trapped in the snow
Froze all my hopes for us tonight
I was taken for a ride
Kept my feelings to myself, let them bottle up inside
I curse my selfish pride
I never could explain myself for fear of prying eyes
Now it’s gone
You wouldn’t know.
It’s ten to nine and hot tonight and I’m here on my own
I’m taking time out redefining myself as a loner
And you’re not what I’d call fun in any case
So I’m hanging out with no-one
Look around the room well I’m that quiet boy in the corner
Engage me in small talk and I’ll say much less than I oughtta
I’m spiteful and I’d fight you anyday
These days I choose to please no-one
Your views aren’t sound, (ergo) my case is won
I can’t empathise no more and I forgot about you
All about you anyway
Pretend you never saw my face
Don’t call in if you pass this place
There’s nothing left to say and I forgot about you
All about you anyway
I’m hanging out with no-one
I’ve made it clear I’m outta here
I can’t wait to be back home.
I don’t want to stand on your toes or push you too hard
I might fall on my face or from grace, hoist on my own petard
I’m trying not to make you feel you have to follow me around
I’d soon lose my appeal when you see me flounder on my own
For in the time it takes you to decide
The chances are I’ll have changed my mind
So we’ll play out our game of wait and see
Let the world pass us by quite patiently
Left behind, unbeknown, just you and me
While we leave our frame of mind exposed
I just can’t through when I question you, and you stall me all the while
All I contribute leaves you more confused, the whole exercise futile
And I know it’s cruel when I question you and you think I’m being unkind
But all I’m trying to do is get your point of view
Then I could let myself unwind.
I think I’m easy going but what really makes me sore
Is being denigrated and told that what we’re doing is worthless and old
As if this form of music has less merit just because
It’s fast and short and easy to play
I can even make this line curtailed, ha ha
It’s fun writing songs and drinking lemonade
The truth will out it’s got to be told
I’m stealing riffs from 18 year olds
Retained our independence, we answer to no-one
Make our own decisions, and usually get it wrong
It’s unpunk rewriting songs and drinking lemonade
The truth will out it’s got to be told
I’m stealing riffs from 18 year olds.
My arguments are porous yet most times we’re in accord
Must be we sense each others moods
Offer me indulgence and I’ll gladly plead incompetence
Convince you I’m no good
I often try to tell myself that we’d be more than friends
And though we’re only starting I can see it start to end
It could pull you down
In many situations I transgress my limitations
And bare my soul to your deaf ears
The reasons are unclear to me I guess I’ll mess it up again
By always being too near
I plead your reassurance that our friendship shall remain
Precipitate your fears by claiming I will never change
It could pull you down
Should I surmise I’d say you think well of me
Albeit quite misunderstood
Sometimes I contradict myself so badly
I’m unprepared for your rebuts
Sometimes I wanna walkaway
I’ve always been the same ever since I was a little child
Easily caught off my guard and constantly beguiled
It’s misinterpreted for I’m not as dumb as I seem
It’s just a guise to prise my way into your jeans
It’s so uncool, making out that I’m a fool
Trying to kid the world that I’m not smart
Now I’m through, what exactly do I do
I always longed to tell you from the start
I might get blown apart
I smile my smile and act as though I’ve never had a care
Underneath I understand but no-one is aware
I’m trying to change my character in ways that you’d perceive
You’d then see the words I’ve written could be written about me.
Pushed into a corner, no hiding place to go
Leaping from a parapet, no safety net below
Acting like a drama queen auditioning for a show
Cast adrift without a script the words were all my own
So I set the scene when you noticed me
Entered stage right then we left it was the best it’s ever been
I don’t wanna wanna go home
I can’t contemplate it without you
I always knew you wouldn’t need a second chance
My hints were less than subtle and I hoped you’d understand
You read the scene, timed it perfectly
And we rode off into the sunset like two film stars on the screen
I don’t wanna wanna go home
I can’t contemplate it
I’m still trapped in a daydream over you.
I’m plagued with insecurity I guess I’ll never win
I scare myself I’ll scare you off then blame the state I’m in
When I think I’ve solved my problems my self doubt makes them restart
My creeping paranoia says you’d rather be apart
And I know I’m in deep
When my dreams torment me
Perhaps the fault lies in my chromosomes
And your resolve
So carry on, leave me hanging in mid-air
Let me down and you won’t find me there I’m gone
A paradox
Run your fingers through my hair
You wouldn’t think that I could get so scared
Hold my hand, understand my feelings
Can’t you see just how much I care
You encapsulate all I believe in
Don’t let these words indict me
Just call my name and I’ll be there.
This time can last forever
If you redefine your limits, of that I’m sure
I yearn for now each passing dawn
Keep what I’ve got and want for more
So enjoy what you’ve created
Blind ambition’s under rated
Fortune’s calling out and it’s always in my thoughts
I’ll take what’s on the table
It needn’t render me unable
To be everything I used to be, and still can be
Stay young
I find it really crazy
That now is so much better than before
It’s only ‘cause I made it so
Was not prepared to let things go
Perhaps you saw me getting blase, thought you’d put me in my place
Can’t forget you, won’t forget you, memories that cannot be erased
It’s time you were told, you knocked me out cold
Right from the top, to us falling apart
Drinking to our health around the kitchen table
Singing songs that turned into a requiem
I never realised we were so unstable
It’s all for the best, or so I guessed
I’d bring you roses, and you’d break my heart
Although I’d never keep you waiting on the times we were apart
Life can be cruel but I’ve no regrets
You don’t know but it isn’t over yet
It’s just the start
I’ll win you back in a short time
Stay here patiently waiting, the one you left behind
And it shows, the feelings within me grow
There’s no one I’ll rather be when you come running back to me
So what you’re going to do
Is find the best path leads right here
And we can start anew.
I trusted those who placed me here
To guide me through my early years
But all along it was pre-planned
Written off with all my peers
No-one worthy studied here
I couldn’t hope to understand
Now I see how I was given little choice
Here’s your bed, you’d better lie in it
We’ve programmed you for life
I’ve been done, fed with lies
It transpires that all I know is wrong
I’ve worked it out, it’s no surprise
To find that all I know is wrong
Little wonder I was spoiling for a fight
Shown the basics but it’s only a disguise to keep me quiet
These days you’re always on my mind
I’ve wasted so much time
Looking for signs I couldn’t read
Hoping that you might be as perfect as you seem
Now you are the one for me
You caught me plumb
It isn’t that I feel aggrieved
In fact I’m rather pleased
There’s no one else I’d rather be
You make me so at ease I can only feel good times
Now you are the one for me
You caught me plumb
I know I’m slow
Show no sagacity, no dash about me
Stoic and cold
I need you to flap about me help me to see
That you are the one for me
You caught me plumb.
Big questions in my mind, am I wasting precious time
Should I be here, more to the point do I enjoy it?
Is this it or is there more, been here so many times before
If you know things worth striving for I will try it
Seems I’ll be the last to know
It’s turned into a chore, reading signs like semaphore
Is this the fashion of the weak, do I buy it?
Patience is a virtue, sure, but do I need this anymore
You too must have your doubts in truth, don’t deny it
Showing signs of disaffection, it’s my problem, it’s not yours
I ask myself would you suffer, if you believe it, tell me so
Noted for my indecision, is that valid, I’m not sure
Come the time I’m on my uppers, wave me off and let me know
Fate throws together strange bedfriends
And where one starts another ends in my recent dealings
We had our chance and time would tell
That when it worked it worked quite well
Or so I perceived it
But when our luck ran colder
You’d just shrug your shoulders
Life’s never boring crossing swords with someone new
All those pretentious games you played
Rubbing shoulders, making waves for the sake of outrage
While I contemplated all of the time I wasted
You’d look askance not missing a chance to prove me wrong
Whilst waiting for plaudits which of course would never come
I look around I’m not like anyone
I see no need why I need more foppish friends
That’s where the story ends
Perhaps I’m just a homeboy
So now I ignore all you say
Do without your mocking ways
And your dubious values, that you misconstrued
I’ll attribute to you
Choosing to keep my distance
It turned out I had good reason
So take your tongue out of my mouth
I’m kissing you goodbye
I’ll leave you still searching another adonis for the night
Carry on searching away in the distance,
Out of my sight
I’ll wave you off and wish you luck
I’m not the jealous type
I wasn’t perfect but I deserved much better.
So long since we were entwined
I hope the intervening period has been kind
Different pressures got too much
I stood so far back waiting that I missed my chances, contemplating
Always hoped we’d stay in touch
Lost my nerve and now I haven’t seen you for years
Missing you, missing out, missing all the fun
Long gone days, special times
That left an imprint on my mind
Now wherever you may be
You’re not alone, and you’re not without me
I’m thinking about you
Pouring with rain, riding on the last train
It’s a quarter to one and I’ve missed my stop
I’m not at my best I’m in no mood for questions
Completely depressed that I’m going nowhere fast
It’s full of strife this punk rock lifestyle
Getting lost and cold
This travel bug would satisfy me more
If I could safely reach my home
Don’t know which line I’m on
My food’s gone cold, my station’s been and gone
Won’t reach home until the morning comes.
I paint myself a smile, the contours are pretend
Just the records that I choose on the jukebox as my friends
I’d cry into my beer but I hate the taste of salt
And ale mixed with my tears turns bitter like my thoughts
I hide behind my words, it’s a verbal camouflage
My feelings stay interred, my face is a charade
With all that’s gone before it’s all I’ve ever known
I strive but I’m unsure, I’m sad you’re not around.