Time was I’d do anything you’d want me to, I wouldn’t balk
We’d make foolish plans, I’d read your mind with just a glance
No words were sought

I guess I thought if I was strong enough you’d treat me much the same
Instead you saw me as inhibited, giving me no chance to explain

You took liberties, I gave you first priority, you wanted more
Although I fought, my days were numbered (nil to nought)
I felt distraught

I really think you saw your income less disposable than me
A broken toy that you could throw away, give away, cast aside easily

I shed tears for you
Cried tears over you
I still end up feeling immature

Direct me to some other time
A situation not so tense and where you’re standing by my side
I wished you were mine
But circumstances took a hand and made a mockery of my trying

Got dirt on my shoes as the sunset turned grey
Bewildered I lost my way and so
I started to run, got trapped in the snow
Froze all my hopes for us tonight

I was taken for a ride
Kept my feelings to myself, let them bottle up inside
I curse my selfish pride
I never could explain myself for fear of prying eyes

Now it’s gone
You wouldn’t know.

I’m plagued with insecurity I guess I’ll never win
I scare myself I’ll scare you off then blame the state I’m in
When I think I’ve solved my problems my self doubt makes them restart
My creeping paranoia says you’d rather be apart

And I know I’m in deep
When my dreams torment me
Perhaps the fault lies in my chromosomes
And your resolve

So carry on, leave me hanging in mid-air
Let me down and you won’t find me there I’m gone
A paradox
Run your fingers through my hair
You wouldn’t think that I could get so scared

Hold my hand, understand my feelings
Can’t you see just how much I care
You encapsulate all I believe in
Don’t let these words indict me
Just call my name and I’ll be there.

This time can last forever
If you redefine your limits, of that I’m sure
I yearn for now each passing dawn
Keep what I’ve got and want for more

So enjoy what you’ve created
Blind ambition’s under rated
Fortune’s calling out and it’s always in my thoughts
I’ll take what’s on the table
It needn’t render me unable
To be everything I used to be, and still can be

Stay young

I find it really crazy
That now is so much better than before
It’s only ‘cause I made it so
Was not prepared to let things go